On the blog...
I took my son to his weekly swim class on Monday.
And as I sat there watching him, it was clear he was having a rough time. Didn't want to put his face in the water. A lot of whining. Some tears.
If I had gone in at that moment and asked, "Do you want to get out of the water?" he might have said yes.
But I didn't do that. I wanted him to finish his lesson.
My daughter's birthday was a few days ago. She is 1!
Her first birthday completes an entire year of being a parent to two kids.
And I have found that it's true what everyone says. You can't imagine loving another child as much as your first. But somehow you do. It's different. At least for me it has been. I haven't had the same time-stopping fascination with her as I did with my son, when every move, look and sound he made was a reason to throw a parade.
With my daughter, I am much more interested in witnessing who she is becoming.
As I write this, today is the first day of school. For BOTH of my kids.
The house is quiet. I am alone.
I have zero immediate childcare related tasks that have to happen.
I have my coaching work prepped and ready to go. I sit down at my desk. I start to feel the familiar feeling.
Maybe you know it.
The feeling of an itchy sweater. Of spontaneous hunger. Of restless legs. Of butterflies in your stomach.
The feeling of knowing that you have to get down to work. And you're going to have to use your brain. And it's going to be hard. And it's going to be uncomfortable.
So many of us stay stuck because we "don't know."
- We don't know HOW to do it
- We don't know WHAT to do next
- We don't know what we SHOULD do
Whatever the flavor, the effect is the same:
"I don't know" keeps us rooted very firmly in place.
But the thing is... you don't know HOW to do something until....wait for it...YOU ACTUALLY DO IT.
If you didn't already know this, I'm sorry, friends, to be the one to tell you. But it's true.